I Walk Alone

So i'm drawing a blank.

This year has been filled with ups...and downs. Highs, lows, blah blah blah and blah!!

I moved out of my grandparents. In turn my hours at my job dropped to 20 hours a week.
Started working at a crap job at JC Penneys. Then I got my hours back at the bank, and dumped the crap job.
Finally....FINALLY got my DL. And....then I got into an accident a month later.
Eventually that all blew over. The last few months i've been waiting for my manager to set me up as a banker, and i'm still waiting.
I've been with a pretty good amount of women, yet the ones I liked would be the ones I can't have.

Overall what i've learned is.....nothing.

Oh!! I did grow my chin hair a little longer. So I can make it into a tail or something...it's fun at work.

But I would like to say that there is hope. Hope that this is the beginning of what i've been waiting for. The kick in the ass of something unbelievable. I'm 23, and i'm one day closer to 24...in following I would be one year closer to 25. What will I have accomplished by then? Well, I have a list!

1) Still be alive.
2) To finally have a car...to drive safely.
3) Perhaps find my way back into school. To actually learn something useful for myself.
4) Maybe have a relationship. Not a fling. Not a one nighter. Something meaningful. Something that I think i'm owed after years of keeping to myself, and not doing a great job at trying.
5) Hopefully to have a better position at my job.
6) To move out again, but this time to live on my own. Or atleast with someone that is cleanlier.
7) Also, to be in much better physical shape. For the sake of my health.

That's a brief goal list, but hey....I gotta keep it simple, right??

For the 2 people that actually read this, I want you to know that by the time I reach closer to my adulthoods prime, I will mean something more to myself. Which is all I have ever cared about, which is myself, and I know that I matter more to me. So anything negative or positive I do has always affected me. So if this hurts or pleases anyone, its gonna be me that feels it.

I'm not a man of God, nor a man of the people, just a man of himself.